Me when others assume shit about me…
Anonymous asked: Omg, your reasoning for putting your littles up for adoption made me cry.. I know how it is. I conceived my first born due to rape when I was 13, and was forced to keep mine. I don't wish my baby away though, she's my blood. I just wish I could've conceived her through love and happiness instead of just being a cumdumpster for some loser ass jerk. You are so strong, and I know how it feels, good luck with the rest of your pregnancy, I hope it goes smoothly and you find the right family for them!
:o 13 I can`t even start to think of how difficult and confusing that must of been for you Anon!!! I am so sorry that happened to you. I agree, when I go to the doctors (I avoid them at all cost unless I absolutely need to go because of the horrible flashbacks I get from going to the doctors) there are happy parents to be and people asking my questions and how excited they are for me.. I wish I was married and that the twins were made out of love rather than 11 hours of torture, ya know? So do you still have you child now, are you and your child close now? Thanks again for the love and support and letting me know I am not alone in this <3
Anonymous asked: I meant supporting you emotionally, but it's WONDERFUL that you get paid maternity leave! That's almost unheard of in the U.S. I'm glad to hear you're being financially taken care of. :)
Awww thank you Anon! Emotionally I have become very isolated recently due to wanting to avoid people. However there are some amazingpeople on here, and my therapist of 10 years is my main supporter. We have a relationship that is very different than its ‘supposed’ to be. We are very close. Thanks for you concern and asking <3
threeflowersblooming asked: Who are some of your favorite mommas and mommas to be on here?
O0o0o0o that`s a good one! In alphabetical(ish) order:
(Bold means my favorites of my favorites)
twentyoneandpregnant asked: balls to even put their names next to the nasty words they are spewing. Feel free to post this. Cowards. You keep on keeping o girl.
^^^^ THANK YOU Scottie!! Like yes I fight with myself every damn day about my past and the rape and shit. But nobody knows what is going on in my head.. It`s scary how when people send ‘Anon hate’ they don`t know of the person they are sending it to is already on the verge of breaking, I luckily wasn`t but I could have easily snapped. Not that what they said was hurtful or rude or even true but I already hated the fact I am carrying their babies, but as time has gone on I fell in love with the babies, ya know?. Thank you for the support I adore you and your baby very much!
Anonymous asked: So who do you live with and/or who is supporting you through this pregnancy?
I also have paid maternity leave from my EMT job.
Okay. Well I had some drama with
lame Anons and stuff. I really really don`t mind people asking me questions regarding my past, mental health, my EMS profession, or my pregnancy with my twin boys (27 weeks today!)
. Feel free to talk to me on Anon or not. About me, you, or anything else. Thank you to the people who stood up for me the past few days. I was really hurt by that Anon. The just kicked me when I was already down, but after receiving love and support and ‘hearts’ from you guys I feel much better. There is nothing you can tell me that I don`t already know/feel/ or think about my pregnancy or past. I encourage you guys to ask me things before you make any assumptions about me. Thank you very much <3
wanna-make-you-feel-beautiful asked: Hi! When you get this, share 5 facts about yourself, then pass it on to 10 of your favorite followers :)
- Been a vegetarian for 10 years
- I have an older sister and a younger sister
- I went to my treatment center with four famous people from 2009-2011 (Only two are well known)
- I am scared of men
- I want to turn my scars into a half sleeve tattoo of vintage sailors/mermaids/anchors on my right arm!